wen thngs go d oder way...

tired of bein driven into conclusions
tired of tossing around the corners
tired of manipulating life's course

i finaly realise....
evn wen it was in my hand...
i wasnt d rider of the horse..

now wen..
its not in my hands...
i stil aint d rider of the horse....

wat difrnc does it make...
if things wer suposed to go ur way....
but dey dint...

wat difrnc does it make..
if life abandoned u..on ur course of life..

wat difrnc does it make...
if u wer exhumed in ur own sacrifice..

wat difrnc does it make......

sometimes u juz cant take thngs for granted...
sometimes u juz cant expect a future....

sometimes u juz gotta live...
coz...
someone up there...
planned ur life's path....

a track u ought to follow...
wen thngs go d oder way..

the SATAN in you.....
not evryone is a saint.......

GENTING HIGHLANDS
amazing place in MALAYSIA
u can actly feel the clouds!!!!!
its almost 2000mtrs above sea level....
n daz wer d beauty of this place lies!!!
a must visit...for ppl who wana feel..
wat holidaying actly is wrth of!!!

hav a gud luck!!

an errand..never accomplished..

it was a sunday..
the sweet shine of the sun..
the glaze of the glistenin glass...
the ray of light...the promising delight....

awakened to the wake of my room's disarray..
my cup of coffee...ryt by my side...
my life..waiting to witness its jumpstart....

the drapes wailing to unveil the brightness..
the shadows..waitin to be forecast..
the lights stil off....
my room dint witness my start..

plans whirling in d conscious mind...
tasks..emanating from my memory..
my insides craving to be alive..
i had to be ther at his wedding..

he was my best mate..
the only soul..that made my life
the only soul that made it worth living..
i had to be ther...

wat stoppd me was not in my command..
it was fate....or maybe it was destiny...
soon enough the emptiness sunk in...
i was dying..

i heard them say..
she might not live.
dis might be her last day....
her eyes stil closed...
dont evn know....if she'l ever wake up from d dead..
the doctor had given up hope....

the murmur in d room was drownin..
my coffee cup...stil lying untchd...
i cudnt move...
i wanted to... so desperately...
i was shrinking within myself....

i cud feel the cringes..
the shudder thru my spine...
a weird sensation....
as if it's..the end of my time....

probably it was....
evn tho...it musnt hav been...
he was my soul....
my love....
i was supposed to be his bride...

maybe dis was d end..
maybe...we wern't destined to be in cohesion...
it was planned....

i lost myself to the dead...
may he live a gud lyf....

it was my hard luck....
my wedding...
an errand..never accomplished..

my loving parents.... :):)

the unforeseen gravels laid on d graves beneath d sand..

its not evrytime dat u get to know d darknes deep inside ur soul....
its not evrytime dat u realise....evrytin is not d way it shud go...
its not evrytime...dat u see...ur losin it...
its not evrytime dat u feel.......ur d only loser in dis world...
its not evrytime dat u feel.....ur left alone to lick d dust dat time has embossd upon u.....
its not evrytime u feel......dat livin life was neva meant fr u...
n its not evrytime u feel.....dat endin it.....is d only way out.........

today is one such day...one such tym....
wen i feel.....its not evrytime...wen i thnk of reconsiderin.....i shud....liv anoder life.....