recording: 04:36 am
rooftop, chilly wind, rustle of the leaves, a bright moon, deathly shadows...
meandering bats speckling the lights from the mighty ITPL edifices...
a pristine view...nature at its best.
back against the railing...a folded knee...
a battered laptop (..oh its still new!! ) ...
a numbness, a calm..
a serene flavor...
i wonder when i had this peace of mind...
seems to me like an era has flown past right before my eyes.....
yet another long day....
work on a saturday...yeah i knw it sux... ##@@###...
some awesome Bleach thereafter......
a bit of Mafia Wars spacing the gaps...
###...Oh i should have gotten a jacket here ^^&&###
freezing......
04:50 am [armed wid my jean jacket]
// don't knw y i want to get this recorded.....it juz needs to be...//
it's those small moments that matter in the end......
9th December 2010... 11:00 pm....
Hostel room #746...4 friends....
the normal gossip routine....
whats the hot movie in town....
ohh he looks so good......
ohh shez so yuck.......
ohh the two of them together $$%% God save the souls!! @#$....
2 battered laptops ( oh dese r very old!! )...
ION wi-fi....some crappy youtube videos.....
some old memories.......
some impish laughs...
some puny cell phones....
last day of end sem......last exam of our lives.......
a happiness bound by no chains....
a sense of freedom.....
the last day in college.....
an internship to look forward to...
a job to dwell upon.........
wat a day it was....
ppl partying hard......after al it was CS that always got done wid its exams first...
oders still savoring our excitement......evn tho dey had exam fvr over der head....
it was the best feelin ever.....
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a night that no one can ever forget.......
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11:15 pm
constant beeping of those puny beings...
ohh ppl shud learn how we ignore \m/
no1 shud interfere....we were havin our imperishable moments together....
2 missed calls....3 missed calls...4th missed call...
5th....my friend had to take dis call dis time...it was juz too much....
a faint smile as she said hello... (why so many calls dude..!! )
a devouring tear the next moment......
the three of us were appalled.......what happened????.....was what evry1's expression pored into her eyes...
the world stood still...we had to get her off the call.....we had to know..what made her snap in an instant...
we had to know....we had to know........
11:30 pm
at first it didn't register....it just didn't register.......it simply dint......
11:40 pm
WHAT!!!! HOW!!! WHY!!! WHY NOW!!! WHY TONIGHT!!! WHY THIS MOMENT????
11:50 pm
calls calls and more calls....evry1 was talkin....wid evry1 ........
juz too many calls.......
12:30 am
6th floor balcony......1 abandoned chair....on that..sat one abandoned soul....
01:00 am
Too much to reason....too much to dwell upon...what internship what job.....its all materialistic...
how does it even matter......
02:00 am
tears found der way to dis world.....
03:00 am
it all registered....
it finally did......
04:00 am
Life is so short.....y do we even bother to run aftr things that dont matter.....
excessive money...compelling work life...obsessive dreams....
for whom? for what purpose??
You should live it the best way you can NOW not strive to make it the best..for a time..ur NOT EVEN sure of........
Life is just a bitch.....lez not make it worse.....
05:00 am
It was just today morning..the time right before our last exam....
He said....aur Aakanksha....aj Dee Tee pe milte hain fir...all the best for our last exam... :)
that smile.....that last look..i still remember.........
its etched deep down my memory lane........
A deathly bike....a cursed tanker.....
I wish we had more time...........i wish the doctors were more efficient...
I wish....it wasnt you......how cud it be u.......we used to sit in the adjacent benches...
4 yrs in one section...always the same room......
neva thot wud feel it so close to my heart...dis feelin of emptiness......
i wish i had no soul........
The way you called out my name...the way i cud neva forget....
the birthday party.....
the DJing together.....
Dose bihari songs......
Dat dance floor.....
I cud still see u der.........
Y u o friend...y u........
Wish you were here.......
Wish u cud c dis...
wish i cud reverse the particles of time....
and juz remove dat death road from the journey of your life.....
Wish dat no such thing ever happens...to neone i know.....neone i care about....
Loved ur company my friend......
Such a happy soul u were...
just wen i was starting to wonder....wud i ever be able to meet my friends...how will i make al dat happen...
we should find some way to keep up in our lives....just wen i was planin our future meetins wid al my pals...
it turns out...i will NEVER be able to meet that one friend...with that smile....
i dont think it will ever sink in.....i dont think il ever believe this happened.......
$$$########...........present day.........%$$$$$$$$$$$$%
05:39 am
I think I can see you amongst those bright stars......
That star..smiling right back at me...that star....saying....hey Aakanksha...kaisi hai tu....
like he alwas used to say........
###.......$#$%$%^.........y is it still freezing out here.......#$..%%^^^.......
I had my jacket on......yes i did........i went back n i got to my room....n i picked that jean jacket up....
i remember doing that.......it was dark....c!! i even forgot my slippers in the process......
##$$....%%^^
If i did not pick the jacket up....then what was that warm touch wen i picked it up???????
4 comments:
The former part of this post was bore no connection to the latter half ... I was like WTF just happened in the middle ... And then the memories crept back into the conscious part again. I remember I couldn't sleep that night ... Or the next one ...
i know dink....i dont think i can eva forget dat night......think bout him countless times....if its so hard fr me....i wonder..how hard it is..for his closest pals......
p.s. thats wat dis post was aiming at....wel..evrytin has a link....the former part of the post is...what mode was the writer in...before delving into dose memories...and wat hapns at the end.....is a direct link to the frst part and wat hapnd midway...read Recording....one of my previus posts....its suposed to folow dat trend....
I had a hunch that the this post was a sequel ... I even tried searching for it in your blog ... But it was written 3 years back :O ... Didn't go that far in your blog post tree ...
ahhhh..i see.....juz added a Prequel link to dis post.....thnx! :)
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