my loving parents.... :):)

the unforeseen gravels laid on d graves beneath d sand..

its not evrytime dat u get to know d darknes deep inside ur soul....
its not evrytime dat u realise....evrytin is not d way it shud go...
its not evrytime...dat u see...ur losin it...
its not evrytime dat u feel.......ur d only loser in dis world...
its not evrytime dat u feel.....ur left alone to lick d dust dat time has embossd upon u.....
its not evrytime u feel......dat livin life was neva meant fr u...
n its not evrytime u feel.....dat endin it.....is d only way out.........

today is one such day...one such tym....
wen i feel.....its not evrytime...wen i thnk of reconsiderin.....i shud....liv anoder life.....

why............

i was alive....
i had lived a great life....

but fr dat day in ma life...
no...it wasnt her....

it was her love fr me...
y did she love me so much...
why......

why did she hav to do dis....
why.....

y did she hav to lay a knife on her...
y did she hav to ruin her "to be" married life...

y did she hav to do dat....
y on the eve o her wedding day...

i was so happy....
i prayed fr her gud lyf....

y cudnt she liv widout me....
y did she hav to love me so much....

was it me....
was it my love....

y was dat love so deep....
dat she had to come to me.....

dat she had to slay her infrnt o me...
so dat...i see..dat stil in her last moments...
da last name was mine....

i dont regret doin d same to myself....
i dont regret.....

i was happy wen alive....
n i was happy wen i slay myself....

she wasnt strong engh...
but we strengthened our relation.....

i aint alive.......
but i thnk...dat was wat i shud hav dun.....

i am satisfied.....
if only...we had been alive..........

if only..dat wedding was nt d end.....
if only......it had been ours........

if only........
why...........

i juz kno....we aint alive................

the week before the examz!!!

well..this is exactly the right moment to share ma thots on this !!!

the week before the exam....

i see evry1 savouring their books....
working out problems n problems n problems..
goin ahead wid der work lik a jet plane!!!

n here i am....sittin wid da thot in ma mind....dat yep...i will stdy...
il definitely stdy....
wil juz start in next 15 mins......
n u al mit be knowin..dose 15 minutes..neva come in our lives......

we dont find ne oder tym betr dan dis...to actly go out n party.....
but stil..we avoid partyin.....juz fr da sake o stdyin.....n stil we don stdy............

so finally we'r stuck up nt stdyin........n not doin nytin........
..
nw wat r we suposd to do????

i juz feel nw....i wan to talk to my mom......feel lik a kid.....ease myself off.....
after all dey r d ones.....who care fr us......
i love my mom....thnx fr helpin me out in dis tgh tym.......
thnx fr bein der maa......