why............

i was alive....
i had lived a great life....

but fr dat day in ma life...
no...it wasnt her....

it was her love fr me...
y did she love me so much...
why......

why did she hav to do dis....
why.....

y did she hav to lay a knife on her...
y did she hav to ruin her "to be" married life...

y did she hav to do dat....
y on the eve o her wedding day...

i was so happy....
i prayed fr her gud lyf....

y cudnt she liv widout me....
y did she hav to love me so much....

was it me....
was it my love....

y was dat love so deep....
dat she had to come to me.....

dat she had to slay her infrnt o me...
so dat...i see..dat stil in her last moments...
da last name was mine....

i dont regret doin d same to myself....
i dont regret.....

i was happy wen alive....
n i was happy wen i slay myself....

she wasnt strong engh...
but we strengthened our relation.....

i aint alive.......
but i thnk...dat was wat i shud hav dun.....

i am satisfied.....
if only...we had been alive..........

if only..dat wedding was nt d end.....
if only......it had been ours........

if only........
why...........

i juz kno....we aint alive................

the week before the examz!!!

well..this is exactly the right moment to share ma thots on this !!!

the week before the exam....

i see evry1 savouring their books....
working out problems n problems n problems..
goin ahead wid der work lik a jet plane!!!

n here i am....sittin wid da thot in ma mind....dat yep...i will stdy...
il definitely stdy....
wil juz start in next 15 mins......
n u al mit be knowin..dose 15 minutes..neva come in our lives......

we dont find ne oder tym betr dan dis...to actly go out n party.....
but stil..we avoid partyin.....juz fr da sake o stdyin.....n stil we don stdy............

so finally we'r stuck up nt stdyin........n not doin nytin........
..
nw wat r we suposd to do????

i juz feel nw....i wan to talk to my mom......feel lik a kid.....ease myself off.....
after all dey r d ones.....who care fr us......
i love my mom....thnx fr helpin me out in dis tgh tym.......
thnx fr bein der maa......

muzic's da soul o ma life....

i lay der al cold...
gaze fixed into nothingness..

da anguish..da anxiety...restless within itself....
no scope o lettin it out....
da wrldz' chained da individuals....

u gotta make ur own stand.....
u gotta liv fr urslf...
cz ur da only 1 whoz never gonna betray u....

evn da shadow's deceivin....
wat u can hav faith in....is juz u ...n none oder....

da soul grinds....
whines......
but i walk al alone.....

no1's gonna understnd u.....
as u urslf can..urslf.....

da muzic..in da shadowz.....
da darkness o da solitary nyt....

da bed o freedom..is wat u lie upon....
gazin into da nothingness....
and explorin da future.....

da muzic goes on.....
i move ahead....

i see light at ma window.....
i get up to move on.....

i hear da muzic.....
i smile...n i walk alone.......